Woohoo, the new computer works!! And I got to see Him on webcam for the first time since we parted.
I miss Him badly. But do I trust his words? It is one of the strains long-distance puts on one.
Why not as before? Changes, unknown variables... The one thing I do know is that I am totally smitten.
Is that so wrong? He fills a hole with his amazing personality and general sense of self. His messages are so sweet, I can hear him smiling when we speak.
Where do I see this going? Could I leave everything I have here? Would he ever consider coming here long-term? Am I just kidding myself? Blinded by hope and falsehoods?
All I want is to be happy. Truely happy. Somewhere, somehow, I endeavour to find that some day...
