Part of my dream came true in a weird way.
Part of my dream came true!
The Ex just tried to reconnect... Just as I thought he was moving on with his life.
The uneasy feeling hasn't gotten any worse, bar the butterflies. I guess I should be thankful that I can purge these feelings in one day!
I am back in the void whereby either way I get hurt. I love him still, but he is utter poison.
Am I his crutch? Does he think about me all the time? With what regards does he hold me?
He also just sent a request to a mutual friend and messaged her (I got a poke instead) as to how I am.
I am curious. I seem to be The One. I am sure he sleeps well at night regardless of life's decisions, but he keeps coming back to me.
I am sorry to say that he blew it.
I miss the fire that burned inside for him. A passion that was so hot and bright that it was killing me. I miss the sex very, very much. I miss his handsome exterior and charming ways.
I am still better off without.
I have what I deserve now, albeit with less interesting bedroom capers and much more sedated emotions.
I fear for my safety if I ever return to his town if He finds out about the new romance, but I am here, safe in loving arms. Safe with someone who knows the truth, even if the Ex wouldn't be able to see or accept his own wrongdoings.
Safe, loved and cherished.