So... Yesterday was almost entirely consumed by the aforementioned boy... Think we were in voice chat for 9 or so hours...
It seems we have both liked each other for some time, and have both raised concerns about our situations...
I melt at the sound of his voice and accent, his humour; we talk every day, we play the same nerdy computer game which is actually how we met... He has helped me get through a lot - literally checking if I have eaten - and it has brought us closer... Even our sexual preferences match by the sounds. As far as I can tell, anyway - it has been a few years...
He is in another country but still in the UK, is a lot younger than myself, and we have not yet met in person... It is all entirely scary - partly because of expectations, partly because of the stigma we will face, partly because of the other fears I hold, such as moving away from family should we actually decide to do this properly...
But I have absolutely no regrets. For the first time in literally years, I feel giddy! I have butterflies! I actually feel it is right, unlike the last few dysfuntional years with my now best friend... Different kind of love.
We have huge hurdles to come, but I am adoring this so far.
We haven't told anyone, though he had talked to another member of our gaming chat a few weeks ago about how he felt about me... The person he spoke to is also in a relationship like we are. I think everyone we play with kinda knows, as our comings and going in group chat have been... suspect... But guess we will make it official after we meet, just in case it doesn't work out...
What the actual fuck am I doing?!
At the same time, more of this please!