My anxiety has been heightened lately... I take a small thing and blow it up in my head.
What if? What if I caused x, y, z because my words were not as on point or perhaps kind as they should be? What if my destiny is not one I can foresee? What if I become homeless, or have to move suddenly? What if I am stuck in this dead end job for the rest of my life? What if he doesn't want me?
What if...
I can't shut it off... Up for a second, down for an hour.
So much uncertainty, I don't know where I stand in the maze that is my life, or in which direction I have the strength and courage to go.
I need a bear hug. Someone to hold me tight and tell me they are there. That it will be okay. For I feel so very alone in my own head and I don't like it here.
