Back to work and the stress has kicked in again. Not just work, but work, relationships, visas, money, the future...
Something has come along that has finalised my decision to stay in the UK indefinitely.
It turns out that the leasehold on the cafe will be up for sale at the end of the season. Staff are getting a chance at it first, and I intend to go all out with whomever else is interested (2 chefs?). It will be the scariest thing I have undertaken, and constant hard work outside of working hours, but I am determined. Early days, but it will happen.
Now, my greatest worry right now - getting my man to the UK. Granted, he's not keen, but for the hopes that we would be together permanently. He knows I will not go there. He doesn't realise that I cannot, without giving up who I am. However, every option seems useless. Visas where he can come for a limited time only, ones where he cannot work, ones where we have to prove we have lived as husband and wife for 2 years... (Looking longer term, I cannot support him, and how can we when nobody LETS us BE together respectively.) It is driving me crazy, and totally stressing me out. I could go to a solicitor that specialises in the subject, but hey! That would cost the money that I sent him in order to survive on the basics through the winter.
Shit out of luck, and no idea where to turn.
